The Velawesomeraptor Himself (clayrobeson) wrote,
The Velawesomeraptor Himself

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Left ravaged and abused by my own mind...

Nightmares. Haven't had them in a really long time. I don't know that you can really call what I had in the wee hours of this morning a nightmare, either. It was just a relentless dream that wouldn't let me go. Granted, it was horrific in nature, but not "I'm being chased by an axe murderer." It just involved death-- not mine, not anyone I know actually, except in the context that the person in the dream was familiar to me somehow. I'll leave it at that, because the rest is a little disturbing.

Needless to say, this morning I'm exhausted mentally, and feeling a little delicate emotionally. If I think too much about what happened in my mind I get worked up and anxious. You see, I tend to have dreams like this when family members die.

I know it sounds silly, but it's genetic. My mother and I both have bizarre dreams when there's a death in the family. My sister gets physically ill. My aunt, Elaine, usually sees the person in a daydream.

Are we crazy? Maybe. I'm just hoping I'm the only one who dreamed last night, so that it's just a dream and not a 'sign' of something worse.

"This is 911, please leave a message at the beep..."

Additional note: When I worry about it, I'm usually wrong. (10:18 AM)

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