October 3rd, 2001

compton

Muh?

Just woke up. Can't fall back asleep...

Where's that Delivery?

me
I LOVE MYSELF
I WANT YOU TO LOVE ME
WHEN I FEEL DOWN
I WANT YOU ABOVE ME
I SEARCH MYSELF
I WANT YOU TO FIND ME
I FORGET MYSELF
I WANT YOU TO REMIND ME
  • Current Music
    Bela Fleck and the Flecktones - Slow Walker
compton

There is nothing to write here...

But I feel the need to communicate right now. So I'm going to ramble a bit until I finger out what I want to say. Which may turn out to be nothing at all.

Lalalalalalalalalalalalala...

Yeah, right.

Ever woke up ten minutes before your alarm, wide awake and ready to start the day then said "Fuckit" and went back to sleep only to sleep in far too long?

I do that every morning lately.

I have NO motivation to come to or participate in activities at my office. I've got that 'week before vacation' syndrome, only it's still 38 days till I leave for Nepal.

THEN, everyone's trying to talk me out of going... well, not everyone, but the 'mother/sister' figures in my life... Secretaries at work, my real sister, some of my less adventurous female friends.

Could you imagine how they'd flip if they knew that Kathmandu is less that 1000 miles from Kabul?

I'm not crazy. I'm not brave. I want to go on vacation. I want to hike to Everest Base Camp. I want to go white water rafting. I want to visit Buddha's birthplace. I want to fly in a jet at 28,000 feet and get to within 5 miles of the peak of Everest. I want to wander the markets bargaining for things to take home with me. I want to be somewhere that's not my normal boring life for a while.

If I don't get to go, I could get homicidal.

If I don't get to go, you guys better get me some serious lovin' so I don't explode like a 10 ton nuclear bomb.

If I don't get to go we're getting REALLY drunk.

Fuck that! I'm going. Goinggoinggoinggoing.

me
RAAR!
  • Current Music
    Moby - Ain't Never Learned
compton

Since you are all my tribe...

This applies to all of you... and if it'll help me get some lovin'... you better do it!

    PISCES (Feb 19-March 20)

    Week of October 4, 2001

    At 11 a.m. on Sept. 7, a million British children participated in an experiment called the Giant Jump. For a minute they leaped up and down, hoping to find out whether they would trigger an earthquake. Results are still being sorted, but early reports suggest that in some places there was the equivalent of a 3.0 temblor. I'd like to propose a more constructive mass research project, Pisces. In light of the fact that it's a perfect time for your tribe to bring more soul to your relationships, I'll ask all of you to carry out the following: At exactly 4 p.m. EDT on Sunday, Oct. 7, spend 10 minutes visualizing in exquisite detail what it would look, sound, smell, and feel like if you were engaged in an intimate partnership that satisfied and challenged you to your depths.

Is that clear? Good. Now make with the visualizing!

me
Visualize Whirrled Peas
  • Current Music
    Live - Deep enough (remix)