July 22nd, 2002


I don't know that truer words have been uttered. At least recently...

It's hard to admit to someone that you have to disappoint them. It's easier to get angry, rage, complicate your life in every way rather than admit that you made a few bad moves and now want to get to a better place. The truth can hurt both you and others, but ultimately it is the only thing there is.

Backpedaling, covering up, denial, beating around the bush... it's never worth it. It's much easier, in the long run, to just come out with it. I've found that to be the most true at work, which is why I'll usually take responsibility for problems even if they're not mine. That way people stop looking for someone to blame and start looking for solutions. Granted, in doing that, I'm not necessarily being honest either, cause MOST of the time it's NOT my fault... but it gets things moving on the right track at least.

Ownership of issues is a big thing. That's what keeps getting brought up in my annual reviews year after year. "You're not afraid to take ownership of things." Well, I am too afraid a lot of the time, it's just that I get tired of waiting for things to settle on their own while people bitch about what's what and who's whose problem.

My fault! And here's how we're going to fix it...
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I spent a most pleasant weekend with my extended family in PA. It's my dad's brother, Lee, and his kids (my cousins, obviously) and all THEIR kids.

Lee and Alyce have a great little cottage on Lake Ariel, and I really enjoy going down there and relaxing. I don't do it nearly often enough... maybe the 5 hour drive down is a bit of a deterrent... but once I'm there, I don't want to leave.

I think it's kind of cool that the whole family lives within a half hour of each other there. All four cousins see each other at least once every other week. Their kids play together on a regular basis. It must be a cool way to grow up.

Both my parents were the youngest kids, so all my cousins are a good deal older than me for the most part. We also moved FAR away from the families, so I didn't see folks that much. (Granted, my one aunt with kids my age moved to Africa, so it's not TOTALLY our fault!)

It's nice now, though, to be able to drop in and be welcomed amongst such a close knit group.

Yay for family!

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I've suddenly found myself stranded in a bog of apathy. I don't want to do anything. Well, that's not true. I'm in the mood to break rules... I wanted to drive 95 going home. That's miles per hour, not the highway (I always take 95 home, that would be nothing new).

I have this feeling like I've somehow been tied up with karmic blah rope, and I can't get free.

Anyone have some scissors?
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Such a geek...

So I figured out how to tweak Amazon. com images. Like I have nothing better to do, right?

This is the source for the image:


By changing the number after the PE you can adjust the discount percent.

Not that this is going to do anything for anyone. It won't get you a bigger discount. It's just something stupid to play with.