The Velawesomeraptor Himself (clayrobeson) wrote,
The Velawesomeraptor Himself

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Winds of change...

There's a calm surrender
To the rush of day
When the heat of the rolling world
Can be turned away
Nepal. It brings me so much internal peace. Even in the busy city with horns honking and motorcycles speeding past. There's just a serenity there that I've yet to find anywhere else.

It's even with me in my dreams. They're move vivid. They last longer. They're not as surreal.

I dreamed alot in Nepal. Alot about myself, and where I am, and where I'm going.

The most powerful of the dreams had me back in college. I didn't know why I was there, but I was in a classroom with... a former girlfriend. The one that (at one point) I thought I'd be with forever. I don't know why she was there, but she sat to one side of me, and someone new sat to the other side. Once class was over, she left me, and I went off with the someone new, holding hands.

I woke feeling very lonely.

I've been single far too long.

I love my friends very much, but there's a line there, which they don't cross. On the outside of that line I'm happy and fulfilled, and pleased with my current state. Inside of that line is a place I've not looked in a long, long time. The dreams made me look there more than I was want to do.

I've been single far too long.

Perhaps this next chapter in my life will change that.

Can you feel the love tonight?

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