I actually hang out with these people outside of rehearsals.
I didn't realize what the feeling was at first, and it took me quite a while to digest it, but I actually enjoy hanging out with the Jesters. Not that I didn't enjoy hanging out with my other castfolk The Foundry folks were social, but were very busy. And I just didn't hang out with the folks from the Asylum. Not that I didn't WANT to, it just rarely happened. And I realized tonight WHY... well, I realized tonight why I *DO* get to hang out with the Jesters, at least.
There's a distinct lack of 'they look down on me' vibe from the Jesters.
I'm an equal to them. And they're happy to have me there. Experiencing this feeling, I can look back at my castmates at the Asylum and realize that they could really have cared less if I was there or not. Not that they didn't enjoy my presence when I was around, but out of sight, out of mind. And I think that's why I never really heard from any of them after I stopped performing with them. I still don't hear from any of them unless I write first, and even then, it's iffy.
There's no real point to my posting this, other that to clarify the things bouncing around in my head at the moment.
But needless to say, I had a really good time hanging out with some of the Jesterfolk today.
It's like a lemon for your butthole.